Looking at You

I am looking at you

Standing in the sand

I can see

The curve of your leg

The bareness of your chest

Which the sun is beating upon

You are looking towards the East

And I hope you are thinking of me

Like I am thinking of you
I wish it was me beating down on your chest

And the heat from my body you are feeling

But, I know it's not

For this is just an old photo from yesteryear
And these are just scribbled lines

From a wanton empty but longing heart.

Glory In Death

Long Way To Go

I have came a long way

Yet, I still have a long way to go.

I have battled turmoil

Yet, turmoil I still have to battle.

I have shed a thousand tears

Yet, a thousand tears I still have to shed.

I have had my heartbroken

Yet, heartbreak I still face.

I have said goodbye to loneliness and embraced friends

Yet, I still have said goodbye to friends and embraced loneliness.

I have came a long way

Yet, I still have a long way to go.

The Hookers Prayer

The next one she meets
She's not gonna shag
Unless of course
It's someone she's already had

For once in her life
She wants to be seen
As something new
Someone clean

To keep her vow
This maybe hard to do
But she is determined
To do it for you

The next time
She says 'I do'
Its not telling a client , she sleeps around
But telling a priest,
Her man she has finally found

The next one she meets
She's not gonna shag
For once in her life
She is not gonna be a slag

Take Me In Your Arms

Take me in your arms
Kiss me, keep me safe
Make me feel like the child you loved
Bring back our memories.

Take me in your arms
Sigh and whisper in my ears

Tell me the secrets of our future you have planned
Remind me of the journeys we have shared.

Take me in your arms
Touch me, explore me, discover me
Make me feel the like the woman I am
Sensual and seductive to my master.

Take me in your arms
Hold me tight

Don't let me go

Until my day fades

And my sun sets.

Pain

She held the blade steadily

Looking at it
Feeling numb

She checked that the edge was sharp

Ready to use

It was time to release

The pain inside

To have a reason
For hurting so much
Slowly but deeply
She slid it through her flesh
Blood began to seep
Through the the tiny cuts
The blood
Dark and red
Began to pool
On the floor
At last,
The hurt inside her

Began to find away out
She finally found
A reason for hurting the way she did.

I know how to turn you on

I sit staring at you

Wearing my Mona Lisa smile

Yes, the secret smile

That comes upon my lips

When I drift away in thought

I know how to turn you on

I know what buttons to press

Slowly but in a determined action

I bend down lower,lower.

Then,

Only then
Do I touch you

I know how to turn you on

I know what buttons to press

So I do!

You come to life and
Start to make familiar noises
As my disc drive formats

Perfect stranger

My eyes have not beheld you

My fingers have only caressed
The dial of my phone

I contacted you by text

And from there it has grown

I wake each morning

To your assigned ring tone
Greeting me to each new day

Slowly but surely

I am falling for my perfect stranger

And I know you feel the same way
We have arranged to meet

In one months time

Less a day

I am now just watching

The seconds slip away

If I had a conscience
I would say to you right now
Go home and get in with your life
And forget about me somehow
But fickle destiny

Lead you to me

And now I can't find the strenght
For my heart to set you free

For the first time
I spoke to you today

And we agreed
A month was too long to wait

We are both walking

Along this road of fate

A new time, place and date

Was hurriedly agreed

Soon all the pieces will come together

Your voice, name, face, touch and kiss

And then you will be

No longer a mystery

Divorce

Bills

Change of account names

Proof of absence

To remove his debts.

Lawyers

Courts

Solicitors

Judge

All involved

In this strange

But common

Everyday pratice

Known as

D I V O R C E

I miss you......

I miss the sound of your laughter
I miss the way you would look at the drinks I gave you and ask if you'd get drunk
I miss the sound of my phone going off
I miss your messages of love and warmth
I miss the sound of your voice
I miss sitting in the garden on summer evenings with you
I miss visiting you
I miss buying you presents and being able to spoil you
I miss the way you enlightened my life
I miss even having to remind you to take your tablets - though you hated them
I miss the way you make me feel wanted
I miss you because I know you'd understand what I am going thru right now
But
most of all
I miss the way you loved me

Conclusion

Me

This is me.

This is my face.

If you look closely

You may see the blue in my eye

The paleness of my skin

The curl in my hair

But,

That does not

Reveal the true me

For what you are looking at

Is only skin deep

To know me

You need to look at my eyes

Into the window of my soul

The Sands of Time

The sands of time

May be passing by

But

In silent thoughts,

Unguarded memories

I hold you near.

Where time and you

Exist separately.

For here,

You are mine forever.

Turning back the faded memories

To re-live them again

Is the way I keep us alive.

Not worrying about

The sands of time

Broken

I know my life will go on

That I will live with or with out you

But!

It's that I don't just want to get by

I want to live with you by my side

I no longer want to be broken in two

I want to be whole again

Unlock my heart

Why tell me things hard to bear?

This knowledge with me

You do not need to share

To my heart you had the key

But when you unlocked it

You just let me be.

Fairytale

From the beginning

I should of known

The fairytale I was

Living was reality

And

The ending wouldn't be

Happy Ever After

Share

We share a love

that can never

be fulfilled

We share a passion

that has filled

us both

We share the knowledge

that we can

never be

We share the grief

knowing we have to

let each other

go free.

A dog called Joe

Where did our time go?
When grass was green

With you by my side

When all that mattered was each other

You were the best thing
That ever happened to me

I love you so
And you loved me

Where did we go wrong?
Was it when we grew apart?
Or

Was it when you left?

Or when I decided

I couldn't cope
You drove me nuts

But we had good times too

Running in fields
Swimming in streams

Laughing and crying
Dancing in dreams

It all went wrong

That one sad day

I watched you leave
I should of made you stay

Sometimes I wonder

If I never let you go

Would you still be here by my side?
I loved you so

Could it be me?

Who’s smile envelopes your mind?
Who’s hand do you want to grasp?
Who’s lips hold your attention?

Who makes your lips dance with laughter?
Who makes your eyes sparkle?
Who makes your heart race when hearing their voice?

Who do you want to wake up to each morning?
Who do you want to share life’s joys with?
Who do you think of when your mind is wondering?

Who gives you the secret smile your wear?
Who gives you joy to bear the saddest times?
Who gives you hope when you are lost?

Could it be me?

Mummy

My head is throbbing

There is so much work still to be done. Quotes to type, phone calls to make, orders to place. "Mummy" she says tapping me

"mummy"

"Not now darling, I'm busy" I say

never looking up at her

I continue to work

She is still sat next to me

"Mummy" she says again

"Wait" I snap

She presses the keys on the laptop

"Stop" I yell brushing her hand away and deleting the letters

"Mummy" she says again

"What!"

"I love you mummy" she hugs me before skipping off content she has told me