Ten times

I saw you
just before I woke this morning
you said you had been thinking.

You had been reading
the card I sent you.

You told me you had said
ten times
'I love her'
as if it was a surprise to you too.

Then you tell me
the words I long to hear.

When you said those words to me
my heart missed a beat
I was dancing,
even though
I wasn't on my feet

I clung on to my dream
as I didn't want you to go.

I wanted to hear you
say those words
over and over again.

But within a heartbeat
you were gone
and all I have
is the longing
to hear
you
utter those words to me.

Tell me what you think...

Tell me what you think.
Are we going forward,
Or backwards and beginning to
S
I
N
K
?

Are we repeating ourselves
and
going over old ground?
Or are we making new
H
I
S
T
O
R
Y
?

Tell me what you think
For I will let you guide me through this..

Don't you ever leave me

Don't you ever leave me
As you are the one who completes me

Don't you ever leave me
As you are the one who makes my soul take flight

Don't you ever leave me
As you are the one who builds me up when I've been torn down

Don't you ever leave me
As you are the one who can make me smile when I'm feeling low

Don't you ever leave me
As you are the one who makes my heart skip a beat when I think of you, of us.

Don't you ever leave me
As you are the one who gives me my secret smile, the one I wear just for you

Don't you ever leave me
As you are the one who still loves me when I am moody, and, brings sunshine into my life.

Don't you ever leave me
As you simply are my world.

My Lovers Back

He runs his hands over me.
Searching.
Probing.
Exploring.
Every cavity, crease and contour.

He searches.
Not as
An old lover,
With tired familiar hands.
But,
Like a child
Who has just received
His first gift
Since the
War and following depression
Ended.

He savour's
Every moment.
Not wanting to miss a thing.
Discovering.
Recording.
Storing.
Every touch.
Every sensation.
To memory.

My lovers back

Sound of the wind

I am lying in the bath
It is heaven

I have opened the windows
The blind is closed
The room is in darkness
I put on a single candle
It is creating a subtle yellow glow

As I lie in the warm water with my eyes closed
I can hear the rain falling
I hear the sound of the wind
rustling the leaves on the tree
I can feel the breeze coming through the blind

It was such a calm smoothing moment
when peace
surrounded me

I could of stayed there forever
Just listening to that noise

But,
sadly,
peace never lasts long in this house
and all too soon
the moment was gone.

Shadow of consciousness

I could never picture your face
I had to look at a photo
to see you.

Though you were in my dreams
it was just a feeling,
a shadow of consciousness
that you were there with me
no matter hard I tried
to picture you,
I couldn't.

I have now stopped looking at photos.

I have cleared away
the ones hidden within reaching distance
for when I needed to see you.

I needed time to grieve,
properly.
To grieve over you.
The friendship I have lost
The Closeness that's gone
The melliflous of your voice.

So little time has gone by
since making that decision
But,
I can see you.
I see so many images of you
You even visit me now
in my head
during my dreams.

This time not as
shadow
but
as you.

Childhood

Childhood only happens once
Enjoy while you can
For soon your daughter
Will be a woman
And your son
A man

She Rides Him.

She runs her hands over his chest
Bending forward
she kisses his face
before she mounts him.

Pulling herself on
she sighs with pleasure
It's a while since
she was sat here
sat on top of him.

Carefully she digs her heels
close to his sides.
Movement begins
slowly at first
she rides him
then
faster,
faster,
faster,
breathing deeper.

Hearts are racing
Suddenly

S
i
l
e
n
c
e

as heights are reached
She holds her breath.

The horse clears the fence
She sighs with relief.

Nature

Just as the deciduous tree
is unable to stop
it's mantle of leaves falling.

The harlot is unable to stop
her clothes from sliding off.

Both are reacting to nature.

Train.

There are times,
when on the train back from town,
when I feel I could just stay on there and never get off.

It feels sometimes like my life,
going by so fast,
but,
never getting to the final destination.
I will arrive one day.
That will be the day I find me
and the meaning of my existence.

Friends

Some friends
can be just like
the rolling of the sea
For a while
are there
soothing
refreshing
Calming

But just like the tide

Soon some are gone
and all you are left
with are
memories of days gone by.



True friends are the ones who
know you
for who you are.

Seeing you at your
best
and
lowest.

These are the friends
that last forever.

Memories of you

I whisper softly in the wind
No other place to cast the words
No other ears to hear

Memories of you still linger
Here in my head
but no longer with fear or dread.

I thought my heart
would remind broken
but as wings heal
so do hearts

It took awhile
for the pain and
the wantonness to subside

But!
I can now hold
my memories of you
in my head
without making a single
t
e
a
r
.

Played

She was told once
he wants more
paticently he has waited
she was venerable
lonely
disregarded
She was weak,
unaware the game he was playing
With his smooth words
he would coax her
She gave out info
never before shared
he sought for the info
to other secrets she held
Then once gained
he played her again
And like a harp
she sang
to the
teasing of his fingers

Thorns and needles

Just as the thorns on a rose

Hurts as it

pierces the skin

So does the needle

when the ink goes

in.

Desire fullfilled

Lust is strong
Flesh is weak
Bodies entingled
Moments of pleasure
Beads of sweat
Moans from satisfication
Desire fullfilled

Heartbreak Wine

Dull red wine was her poison
Poured
in a crystal glass
She would say to herself
"I'll have just this one"
then again
she'd say"Just one more"

Until she would open another bottle.

Soon she would drink enough
for the heartbreak to fade
as the wine would take hold
and she would fall into
a land where
pain
time
and
you
don't exist

Now That You're Gone

Now that you're gone
Who'll kiss me tenderly?

Now that you're gone
Who'll hold me closely?

Now that you're gone
Who'll speak to me softly?

Now that you're gone
Who'll long to hold me?

Now that you're gone
Who'll wipe away the tears?

Now that you're gone
Who'll tell me everything will be fine?

Now that you're gone
What will I do?

Bubbles

Just as bubbles drift on the air
My mind often drifts to thoughts of you.

Truth

Lies come forth easily
Without thought or restraint
It's truth that stumbles in
Ones throat

Perfect world

You said your love was forever

Safe
Happy
Warm
Together forever
Forsaking all others

You claim our world is perfect
That i'm the one.
The only one.

So why did
you
need
her
?